MamaBlogger365 – In the Quiet by Julie Ann Cook
In the Quiet
You are in the quiet space
where I used to feel alone.
You are in my empty arms,
not in my womb or grown.
You’ll be in each infant’s cries,
not at my begging breast.
You are in the mid of night
when no new parent rests.
You’ll be in your brothers’ eyes:
I’m sure you’d have the same.
You’ll be in a stranger’s words
when they casually say your name.
You are Home in the safest place
a mother’s child could be,
but God knows in my broken heart
I wish you were with me.
You were never ours to keep:
no person ever is.
Too soon we were reminded, though,
that you were always His.
Previously published on Wordchimes.com
Bio: Julie Ann Cook is a happily married, joyfully outnumbered mother of four boys, one who was stillborn at 20 weeks. Between assisting in living room railroad construction and addressing concerns of who would win in a fight between Megatron and Iron Man, Julie is an author, artist, and webmaster. Only with the loss of John Blaise, her fourth son, did Julie gain perspective on the number of women who belong to the “strange sisterhood” of mothers who have not had the opportunity to raise a child they conceived. She now promotes awareness about miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant death in hopes that others dealing with this loss may find comfort and healing, and friends and families may learn how to better support grieving families. Julie’s writing has appeared in various publications including the Kakalak Anthology of Carolina Poets, moonshine review, and The Wolf. She is currently working on a collection of poetry focusing on motherhood, and she blogs at Digging Cheese out of Carpet in her *ahem* spare time.