MamaBlogger365 – Sisterhood by Julie Ann Cook


for KHB, and all members of this strange sisterhood

Driving home, I heard the news
that for the third time you were half too soon.
I took the news like a grown-up:
I calmly promised prayers and offered food,
help – anything – because that’s what we do
when there is nothing left
but to scream.

Because some days the sky falls and we simply call it rain.
Some nights there are no stars in view.
Some days the wind bites and brings aching pain,
and some nights we call the dark moon “new.”

While drying dishes, it hit me how hard it hit,
the weight of nothing to hold, no reason to wake
in the wake of broken water and dreams.
A shrill it’s not fair died on the floor,
as useless as peeled wallpaper,
a rotting plum. And I cried

because some days the sky crumbles into white flakes that fall
to hide the sharp, dark angles of this broken place.
Some mornings stay grey through nightfall.
Sometimes lightning strikes are crashing grace

So let’s let our tears roll like thunder,
sister, dear sister of mine. Let our wails pierce
this air that’s too thick to swallow, let them cleanse our souls
like Noah’s flood. And two by two, me and you and you and you,
let us grieve our losses as we hold each other, instead of the children
we have buried.



Bio: Julie Ann Cook is a happily married, joyfully outnumbered mother of four boys, one who was stillborn at 20 weeks. Between assisting in living room railroad construction and addressing concerns of who would win in a fight between Megatron and Iron Man, Julie is an author, artist, and webmaster. Only with the loss of John Blaise, her fourth son, did Julie gain perspective on the number of women who belong to the “strange sisterhood” of mothers who have not had the opportunity to raise a child they conceived. She now promotes awareness about miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant death in hopes that others dealing with this loss may find comfort and healing, and friends and families may learn how to better support grieving families. Julie’s writing has appeared in various publications including the Kakalak Anthology of Carolina Poets, moonshine review, and The Wolf. She is currently working on a collection of poetry focusing on motherhood, and she blogs at Digging Cheese out of Carpet in her *ahem* spare time.


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4 Responses to “MamaBlogger365 – Sisterhood by Julie Ann Cook”
  1. Kim says:

    Julie, as always you have taken the loss of something so sacred and made the loss sacred as well. Beautiful.

  2. Joyce Ledgerwood says:

    Julie, there is not doubt you write from your heart. First we ask why this tragic loss happened? Then I witness your incredible talent once again and I can’t help but think it was God’s way of exposing you so you will write and bring comfort to others who are hurting. If there can be any good that comes from such a tremendous loss, this has to be it. Please keep on administering through your writing…there is so much left to say to so many who are quietly hurting and feeling so alone.

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